
Rachel and I got a ride to school today since it was kinda wet outside, and we were running a bit late. The usual. There was a bee in Spanish, and Mabel started crying 'cos she has some phobia of bees/wasps or something. O.o I couldn't help but kinda laugh/smile 'cos she's always been like this... since we were little. First to cry, first to spaz, first to yell... it's hilarious. Last summer, (when Nima & I were still together) Nima came to one of our parties or something where we were playing with water guns and all... we all picked on her for fun and sprayed her like hell with the super soakers and she started spazzing out like some maniac. Hahaha! Creates an awkward silence, but we all know better than to screw around with her after the spaz out... so we just go on and chill without her for a few minutes until she's okay again. Haha, so funny! In Phys Ed, the teacher wasn't there so we played New Zealand Cricket. So many people didn't participate so it was like sjdkfadskpa. We wanted to play Basketball instead since they were all sitting on the bleachers, but nooo the supply wouldn't let us... so we stuck to NZC.
Skated to BK and had lunch with Richard. We got something from one of those toy vending machines... haha! : ) He's the first person I've ever done that with... besides my sister when I was 4. Hehe, so we got the sticky thingy that I gave to Courtney's brother. Math was hilarious as usual. I almost fell asleep in French. After school, I hung out with Rich & Henry for a while. Henry got picked up and I lent Richard my skateboard to skate home 'cos I was getting picked up to see the optometrist. Got my eyes checked... whoa, it improved again! So I picked out a pair of glasses and was indecisive between the two pairs... thicker rims (1) or thinner rims(2)? In the end I chose thinner rims 'cos if and when my hair grows back, I don't think I'd look good with thicker rims... too fob/emo. Je ne suis fob/emo, therefore I chose the thin rims. What a hard decision! *rolls eyes & grins* I wanna look like a girly girl. -_- Ahahaha I'm pathetic. I put the P into the PRL.
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Rachel and I sat down on the stairs this morning and did some talking. She with her issues... me with mine. She told me something, and I guess I really got what she was saying, 'cos that was how I felt. I'm still holding on because I can't let go... I still want that hope because I love. Pretty much lying to myself... even though I just sort of said that. -_- Contradicting myself, but honestly... yeah. I know there's just no hope... but I still want that hope. I still love that person even though I know the love will never be returned... I know I want to be with that person for the rest of my life... but I know I never will.
I'm holding on to a dream that'll never come true.
"I love you but I fear you." ...Sound familiar?
Spilled my heart out to you on a silver platter... </33 and I can't get it back.
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Relient K - Be My Escape
Josh Groban - Mi Mancherai
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Sent the Relient K song to Richard. : ) He agrees that it's good. Yay! Haha, it's an awesome song. I tried looking up guitar tabs/chords for it. It's pretty confusing. I'm trying to find a simpler version.
Love is overrated. |